The Unmistakable Cone of Ignorance

I have just ordered a new toy . A shiney new  Kaossilator . This makes me happy.

Where am I going in life?   I feel burned out and directionless lately.   I have a thesis to do… Enlightenment will be achieved.  Not sure what will come after my thesis.   Life will happen.

I need to start lifting heavy things and setting them down again.

Covered with hope!

I just saw the Dark Knight and it was amazing.

It could be a bad sign I was most sympathetic to the Joker.

Fuck it.  Let the planets burn!

Why the fuck am I not asleep.  I was asleep but now I’m not.   Fuck this noise.

I’ve arrived in california.  In fact I’ve been arrived since last friday… thursday?  something like that ;p  Think thursday actually.  Was living in a hotel and just moved into my summer apartment on Sunday.   I started working at NVIDIA for the summer today.   Suffered through employee orientation and started to meet the people I’ll be working with.   That’s pretty much all I’ll say about that since I don’t even want to touch the issue of what I can and can’t say.  The government will put your ass in jail but a corp’ll just sue you into oblivion ;p  I kid… but I can’t discuss anything I’m doing or the people I’m working with in any detail so why bother even pussy footing around it.   I’ll just say  everyone I’ve met has seemed pretty nice so far and it  turns out I’m technically an hourly employee so after I clear it with my manager I can probably get time and half for 2 hours a day … means 10 hour days but I’ll hopefully be having fun doing it.  And it’s not mandatory … I just need to have approval to work the overtime and i’ll get lots of extra money.

On a secondary note about NVIDIA… I received my consolation prize for applying to the NVIDIA Fellowship today as well….. A shiney new 9800 GX2.    dual gpu on one board with 1gig of video memory.   It is the new top of the line flagship card.   Holy shit my current employer fucking rules.   Shame I can’t pop that sucker in and take it for a spin till September.  But damn… that was uber generous of them.  I was expected a T-shirt or a tote bag when they sent us all the email notification of a gift just for applying.

Now I sleep so I can get to work tomorrow and start in on being a non slacking productive member of society.

I start my roadtrip to NVIDIA tomorrow morning in just a few hours.  Soon I will be in Santa Clara for the summer.  I guess NVIDIA has a policy that says no blogging about my job or job activities while I work there.   Pretty standard policy.   So any summer discussions won’t be related to that.    I still have no idea what I’m going to be doing while I’m there.   Working.

and I feel sleepy.

If you were born after 1975 or maybe 1980, you don’t get social security.  I’d be maybe willing to say after 1990.  Some generation is gonna take it in the ass on this boondoggle of safety net, might as well step up to the plate on this one since ours has close to 40 or 50 years to plan for retirement.  So fuck it.  We’ll keep paying for your debts since the world basically fucked the older generations over and we’ll build a better future.  So figure 1980 + 80 years means we just have to keep it limping along till 2060 and as older generations die off without new recipients this should become a self correcting problem.

Plan better you fuckers!

P.S.  Glendale CA is awesome.

that is all.

It’s good for you to meet people like us.

You have been sentenced to life without patrol.

Do you

A) Reflect on your ways and attempt to redeem yourself while living in a predatory shit hole?

B) Say ‘Fuck it’  and start racking up the offenses as you unleash your rage?  After all what can they do?  Sentence you to 2 more life sentences without parole and then another 99 years and then 40 more?

C) Kill yourself cause the alternative is to spend the next 50 or 60 years in the worst place ever because the American justice system is so fucked up it’s remarkable we’re considered a first world nation?

Have I mentioned my growing love for hockey here?  I can’t remember.  If I did, well, fuck you, I’m mentioning it again.  If I didn’t then, ” I have a growing love of hockey.”  So, Amanda and I went to the Senators v Capitals game today and got to watch the Capitals beat the Senators for the 4th time this season with a 4-2 win. We had 5th row seats near an end of the rink.

Means the Caps(one of the worst teams in points) have managed to beat the second best team in the league everytime they’ve met.  Also puts the Caps just 5 points away from the division lead.  Which is good cause the only way a southeast division team is going to make the playoffs is as the division seed.    I also got a ‘Kolzig’ hockey jersey as a souvenir and good luck shirt.  I look good in red and hockey jerseys.  Maybe I should’ve played hockey ;p.     I’ll put up some pictures of me in said jersey later.

On a side note, why are anonymous blogs written by people in retail or service so compelling to the rest of society.  I’ve started reading the backlog of this blog yesterday and I find it captivating.  He’s won some awards and been on a number of shows and done interviews and even gotten a book deal out of it all. Maybe it’s the Everyman aspect to it all. Everyone loves the everyman.

Why is it anytime a famous person suffers a mental breakdown or an addiction to something, we have all these people talking about how such and such a person *cough* brittneyspears *cough* should be forced to get help or something cause they’re a danger to themselves and\or others.  Yet we(as a nation) let that sick bastard Reagan get away with forcing all the insane out of asylums and onto the streets.

Ok that was a most slanted paragraph.  The nuances weren’t there.  I’m sure are factors influencing both sides.  Now here’s another one.

How can we as a society be (generally) for having people get help for their addictions, insanities and be against drug abuse, yet oppose tax funded rehab centers and mental health treatment facilities.  We are a supposedly compassionate nation, but we can’t bring ourselves to provide safe centers for addicts when they are incapacitated by drug use.  Safe centers which would help prevent the spread of disease and provide a vehicle to help people enter rehab.  Instead we throw these people into over crowded prisons half the time or just let them rot the other half.     Our penal system only serves to punish people then punish them some more(the rest of their lives in some cases) for their crimes.    Punishments which don’t serve to help our society.  Punishments which don’t help people with the problems that drove them to the state they reached.    Seriously…. WHAT THE FUCK!

Here’s a start.  Legalize Drugs and Prostitution.  Persecute pimps and slavers and white collar crimes harshly since these are things which are ACTIVELY attempting to undermine our society.   Government corruption should be classified as treason and receive a justified death penalty, by hanging until dead.   Punish small scale thievery and other such crimes with mandatory education and job placement into apprenticeship programs.   Actions resulting in  harm or death on a small scale through negligence  should result in sentences wherein the people responsible shall work to repay and recompense the people affected by their actions.   This can involve monetary compensation, reasonable periods of limited freedoms and counseling of the person involved.  I would pretty much rank anything up to second degree murder into this category.

Rape: Castration and counseling.  We just need to clip the nerves that let them get it up.   False accusations of rape…. 25 years in a prison.  You tried to game the system fuck you.   Ok maybe this is a bit harsh but really if you rape someone and it’s provable… why should you get to keep your sexual toy?  But anyone who attempts to falsely accuse someone of rape to get back at them should be hit with a clue bat.

First Degree Murder, Serial killers, Pathological willingness to kill without cause:  Counseling and then placement into life sentences if they are found to be irreparable.

Sure there are human problems to all this but there is no reason not to have sane and logical methods and motivations to our justice system.

Eh Fuck it,  We’re probably doomed.